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in this post , im just gonna expose my feelings & thoughts . im gonna be truthful & honest in everythang i say here . &starting from today , i wont care about other's feelings &thoughts . its all gonna be ME (: so , sorry if my language hurt you guys okay ? otherwise , its my blog . its my daily diary .

i felt so left out . i feel like im ill-treatened altho im not . &yeaa , i felt so bad in everythang i did . my friends , are not like they used to be . & to be true , wunn & yaya too . we not as close like we used to in th past . wunn & yaya is becoming closer to each other . while me ? not at all . &yes , i felt jealous whenever i saw them together . its not that i want their friendship to break-down . its just that , i want them to treat me like how they treat each other . isn't that simple ? criously , i knew MOST of my friends have been talking behind me . & its a fake if wunn & yaya did'nt did th same , right ? im sure they both talked about me also . well , i dont care . cause i know , I CHANGED . i admited , i change since i stayed jurong . i change cause i had new friends . i change since i became anuar's gf ( lastyear ) . i realise it also . &guys , im sorry . i change th way i spoke to ppl . i change th way i look on ppl . &i change th way i judge ppl . but , one thing that's not changing in my life . my love & care towards all my friends . yeaa , i have new friends like yuyul , aicha , faa & others from westside ( you know who you are ) . but , did you guys think why im becoming closer to them ? its bcause , you guys are treating me like strangers . like enemies . like criously , who am i to you ? huhh ? bestfriend ? sister ? buddy ? enemy ? owhh gawshh ~ please understand me , will you ? im trying my best to be a best friend . but hey , whenever i wanna change , you guys just dont give me a chance . this is what i feel larh qn ? in school , when i entered class , i'll always saw yaya & wunn seating together . laughing their whole out . but me ? i just have to be alone . abit also i dont care . ppl might think im jealous cause ive been w wunn for 7years & suddenly she became close to yaya but not me . fyi , ITS WRONG . im not jealous about wunn aparting from me & became closer to yaya (: its just that , all i want is WYS became closer to one another like how we used to . like lastyear . i knew that ive not been giving you guys respect &stuffs . but i will if you guys treat me like before & if you accepted me in WYS . once again , im sorry for th bigbig change that ive made . i love you guys altho i have new friends .

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& lastly , i would like to take this oportunity to wish this guy above ^ a happy bday (:

happy bday to you (: tmr is your bigbig day w nurul dhanaria & i hope you guys may last forever . heeeeh .