ya allah , ya tuhanku . aku baru sedar bahawa aku telah melukai hati ramai orang . alangkah jahatnye aku slame ni . hais , ): shasha ingin meminta maaf kepade semua teman - teman \ ahli keluarga \ ahli scp sekian kerana telah melukai hati anda semua . kini ku sedari bahawasanya , aku telah mengabaikan scp . aku juga telah banyak berbuat dosa . aku sedar bahawa diriku berubah . daripada okay - sederhana - tak baik -BUROK !. waduh ~ jikalaolha masa boleh diputarkan kembali , aku sudha pasti akan turuti kata - kata arwah nyai ku . aku juga akan pilih kawan - kawanku dengan betul dan , aku akan belejar bersungguh - sungguh . i need to put a fullstop to everything . like really , like swear . by hook , or by crook . ive gotta change . times runnig , worlds moving , age' increasing . if i wont repent now , when will it be then ?. ive gotta stop hurting people around me . ive gotta be down to earth . i'll start to vow , from now onwards , i'll divide my time equally between family , friends , studies , scp . and from there onwards , will i regain back my trust from my family , scp and friends . i dont wanna let anyo down ever , ever again . enough of me hurting my loved ones , till i lost a precious friend , addthika . sucha regret . my heart swell . my mind kept thinking about her . but what i could do is just , redha menerima segalanya dengan ikhlas dan tabah menempuhi segala rintangan . well , karma . hais . i texted kak nisa , kak nana , kak kynn , kak yana , abang yayan . and i promised them to be th shahida'amylda that they used to know before . kak yana & abang yayan gave me alots of advices . im lucky to have them . i wont let this opportunity run away . not anym . i wont neglect them dan aku tidak akan pernah mengabaikan bidang penceluburan seni kudakepangku lagi . i guess , by mia-ing from friends is th best solution . sumpah , it is .

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